Emo Alert

Oh well, it's not good to dwell on ur misery for long right? So, let's move on. (erm, im actually entertaining myself since he's suffering frm PMS, which could last for days.that if im lucky. if not, it would be weeks then.)

Tee-he-heeee. I'm evil.

Anyway, today have to deal with another person who is suffering from major mood swings. Aku ni yang tgh PMS, belum ade chance to exhibit my mood swings. Chet.

Since, my siblings and I were very young, we always had someone who would babysat us during the day. So, our nanny would come over to our house from 9am-4pm. I remembered Kak Esah, who always brought me for evening strolls before she went home; Kak Rahmah with her verrryyy long hair (and over zealous and abusive husband); and arwah Tok Temah, who dotted on me sooo much, i could do away with almost everything while Kakak and Abang weren't so lucky. Arwah Tok Temah was the one who taught us to keep pets, starting from cats then moved on to mermut or rabbit. Tok Temah ni banyak songeh orangnye. Sebab dia makan sirih and songel. Hehe. I was always fascinated with her makan sirih rituals. Starting from wiping the leaf on her batik, calit with some kapur, put on the gambir, fold it, and munch munch munch away. Then she would spit orange/red coloured juices *erk*, before taking the songel, and tucked it behind her lips.

I don't know how could i let those lips kissed my cheeks. heheh.

After her, Mak started to hire full-time helpers to help taking care of us, and with the household chores. But we never ever address them as Bibik, orang gaji or even maid. They are known as pembantu rumah. Once, when i was 5 or 6 years old, I was scolded by my parents for addressing them as orang gaji. We are obliged to help with the chores too. Setting up the tables, washing our school shoes. Kalau nak panggil, bukan melaung. We treated them as part of the family. And most of them stayed with us for years. Alhamdulillah, we never encountered any incidents such as them running away (with the money etc etc).

Every one of them has come and goes, each of them has their own plusses and minusses. And so far, the best helper we ever had is the current one. Kak Supi. She is the epitome of professional maid. Kalau lah ada pangkat mcm gomen, silap2 dia S48 kot? hehe. She cleans well, cooks well (tak nampak aku makin SIHAT ni?), even pandai berjimat when it comes to buying groceries (she followed Mak to the market every weekend). She has her own ISO in doing things. Am not kidding. She even folded plastic bags ok?

Only that, after her mom passed away last year, she has been suffering from mood swings. We could understand her sorrows, sadness for not being able to be by her mum's side. We had offered to send her for a month break, on our expenses but she refused. Even now, once in a while we told her, to go ahead and visit her family, again she would refused. Takde duit katanya. The thing is, we have decided we would pay for it. Sebagai hadiah/balasan atas bantuan dia selama ini. Tapi dia x nak.

And she never moves on. Setahun dah berlalu, and she could change dari ceria nyanyi2 to really quiet. Tak makan. Tak cakap. Kdg2 tu tak masak. Bile tanye nak masak ape hari ni? Dia jawab.. "entah". Then senyapppp je. Tak cakap pon ape benda yg kurang ke.. nk kena beli ape ke. Kadang2 tu kalau ckp sepatah2, pastu mumble2. Not only to me, but even to my mom. Itu yang kdg2 buat kita hilang sabar. Tapi tak pernah marah dia, except once sebab Mak dah geram sgt. But that's it. And we tried to understand her and give her some spaces. I even brought her for occasional retail therapies. Cuma at times, her moodiness was too overbearing. Sakit dada wehhh..

Like siang tadi, she made roti jala to eat with leftover kari ayam. Memang la superb. Approaching noon, I asked her could we have something simple for lunch today. "Nak masak ape. Xde menda"She mumbled. Berasap la jugak. I mean, kalau xde, cakap la kan? We didnt go to market today sebab Mak pegi KL with Kakak. Igt brg2 masih cukup lagi. So I asked her, ape yang x ade. Satu-satu dia jawab. Example:

Me: Kak Supi, ade ape nk pesan x?
K Supi: Tak tau.
Me: Takdela, sayur2 ke.. lauk2 ke.
K Supi: Sayur.
Me: Lagi?
K Supi: Lauk lah.
Me: Lagi?
K Supi: shjkeuhfbvd (incomprehensible mumblings)
Me: Apa dia?
K Supi: adhkjefhfje (refer above)

Fed up.. i end up buy ape2 je yg patut.. kurang ke lebih ke.. lantak la kan..

In her good mood.. she would write the list herself, and happily give it to me. Sambil gurau-gurau.

Tak ke poning kepala aku asik layan orang emoooo je.