Saya Rasa

..sunyilah.

this weekend he has offshore duties. which means in 3 days he will be back. and after 3 days i will get to hear from him. or in my case, read (the chat transcript) from him.

jd, kenapa sunyi? mcm x biasa je. this is not the first time he went for his offshore duties. before this, earlier in our relationship he used to sail for months. xde beza cos sebelum ni pon most of the time we're apart.him being in s'pore (or karimun or pelepas or tekong or NY or texas or china) , and me in kl. kalau dia ade kt umah pn, he's still miles apart.

*saya sunyi yg berlipat ganda sbb hujung minggu ni xde sapa yg dtg nk melawat saya. sob sob. n most of the time pn kena bertapa kt library*

might be i got use to having him around whenever i switched on the pc and log on the net. he has become my housemate. virtual housemate that is. i talked to him more often than anyone else when i'm in KL. he knows what's on my agenda for the day, what i have for lunch or dinner, and make sure i do my work. sometimes he would accompany me while im doing my thesis and conveniently he would become my malay-english dictionary.

if only i could have him transported through the phone line or able to make him appear in flesh by pulling him out of my laptop screen. heheh

might be i got used of having him missed calling me to indicate that he's online and wished me to join him. pronto. on the cue, i would leave behind whatever i'm doing/holding/eating/planning to do, wade through the piles of thesis and research articles and head towards my laptop. and puff.. there he is, with a hello standing by.

he had me at hello!! *jerry maguire* no wait.. he had me at 'assalamualaikum'.. ;)

yeah, i still have that rush whenever i received his sms or even a missed call from him. imagine how i feel when i hear his voice. yes, i would feel giddy. giddy like any 16 years old. or 14 years old? or 12? hmm

i still have it, eventhough we've been together since i turned 16.

talking to someone in person, continously for hours could resulted to me suffering from sore throat. im serious. once i had a friend came over to accompany me during the weekend, and by the time she got home, sore throat came to visit.

see, how 'terpencil' i am, in KL. KL!! tempat yang paling padat penduduknye di M'sia.

i prefer to stay in instead of staying out for i will missed the opportunity of spending times with him, in whatever means we could - by phone or internet. spending time outside is a torture at times - every single thing that i see would remind me of him. be it aiskrim mcdonald or.. OR a dead cat at the road side. *a bully he is, he would accused me of causing death to the dead cat.. any cat at the road side. because he knows how much i adore cats and how i would squirmed at the sight of the carcasses*

im wishing and hoping and praying that the day will come when i could see/talk/be with him wherever, whenever i want. without having a laptop or a phone receiver between us.

this entry will self destruct in 3 days.

Saya Tak Nak Lari-lari Dah...

... especially when it costs me rm900. that's the amount i have to cough up for research fees per semester. That does not include rm400 for recurring fees. Gini kena jual 100balang cookies nk cover my tuition fees.

Ade sape-sape nk order cookies ke? eheh

So, wish me luck for i'm going to 'mengadap' my supervisor tomorrow. Insya Allah.

A Taste of Heaven...

Last Saturday evening, I had my first taste of heaven in here..
savouring these..

the upper right plate is mine!! mine!!! filled with meatball made from minced lamb, dhall and mints; spaghetti with cheese (and lamb); celery stew (with lamb), rice (with lamb). kenyang teramat sampai malam pn sendawa masih bau kambing.

followed by these..

This is Tiramisu. Yes. It's so delicious, no words can do justice to it.

Baklava. First introduced to me by a good friend of mine, Lisa, during our dinner date there last month. Baklawa is a middle eastern desert which is somewhat like a sweet pastry made of chopped nuts layered with phyllo pastry, sweetened with sugar syrup or honey. (or as megat said, "ini mcm ade letak susu pekat manis ni"). With a hint of cardamon/cinnamon/cloves.. woah syiok. Historically, it is considered a food for the rich (thus explains why it's sold by weight - rm12 for 100g) But it's worth every cents!

courtesy of ..

Frina, kissy and me

and

meGat, hir and Port.

..all the way from Singapore to KLCC.

Beautiful pictures are courtesy of Frina.

Light headed part 1

i spent the afternoon with himself today. it has been a month since we last met. was grateful he made it eventhough he was tired working 24/7 for the past 3 days.

went to our usual haunts. cari makan, window shopping, and stuffs (i.e - bicker abt nk decide gi mana/buat apa pas ni.. heheh ). however the moment that lingers in my mind, which keeps playing over and over was when towards the end of our outing; he stood by my side while i was standing in front of the juices n milks section; him carrying the grocery basket which has already filled with a bag of fragrant pears and 2 ketul halia; while i made a decision over which brand of orange juice i would buy; when he said something into my ear; which in return lighted my eyes and made me smile; and filled my stomach with fluttering butterflies.

and it all lasted for 3 seconds. but it's the only thing that i remember the most, and will always do. the power of words being told straight from the heart.

oh and it's none of the iloveyous thingy.

:)