hold ur head high

2 more days. n im off to KL. it's a mixed feelings. i feel sad cos i hv to leave behind the comfort of my home, waking up late in the morning, barging in to the kitchen w food always prepared, talking to my cats, pestering my parents n kid sis n i wud definitely miss my oven n baking utensils. my food mixer. my sifter. my tefal grill pan.

n most of all, there wont be any weekend/weekday tryst. haha. sounds corny eh? okla.. one weekend/weekday where i cud hang out w my man. makansutra n window shop until we drop. well, only me drop. catch movies. i wud miss that definitely. seriously, sometimes i wish i dont hv to go back to KL. i just want to be here, in jb nearer to him...but the time will come ana. just be patience.

i was saying dat i hv a mixed feelings abt going back to kl. im glad dat sch reopens, i wud be bz agn. n finish my MLIS ASAP. hopefully by mid of nxt yr, im back in jb for good. no more commuting btwn KL-JB.

im definitely not going to rot there. it's going to be tough. esp w my friends already registered for diff subjects frm wat i want to take. most of the elective subjects we've taken during degree. am not going to waste my parents money re-taking those subjects. of course it cud helps esp in maintaining my current CGPA. still, i sought for new skills n new things to learn. which i hope wud help me in the future. esp with me wanting to settle down n work in jb. i hv to broaden my expertise, get my options much wider. susah dulu.. biar senang kemudian. i just don want to repeat the same mistake. nk cpt2, but end up feel doubtful over the decision made.

wat concerns me is if im going to take diff subjects frm them, i might face some transportational prob. the faculty is quite far frm the library (20mins walk) n the roads aren't well lighted. even when we walked in groups it cud be quite eerie.

mebe it's time for me to hv a more serious approach to my studies n not being as laidback as before. it was my dream to study overseas, be on my own. it nearly came true though but bukan my rezki yet. hey, i cud just imagine dat im overseas, work my way on my own. hehe. if its the only way to pull me through.. y not eh? a little imagination wont do harm for u.

good luck for me! n wipe those tears from ur eyes. relax la babe.. cam x biase je g KL.

Patience

Patience.
Is a virtue?

we'll see.

3 days worth of blog

my heart is beating faster than usual. my toes n fingers are cold. a bit restless. n i cudnt focus on wat im supposed to do. i cant even blog while listening to the music. i cant IM more than 1 person at a time. im incapable of multitasking!! *gasp*

mebe it's the choc n coke i had jut now. but it's only 2 tiny squares of choc n 1/4 glass of coke.

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today, i didnt do much. mainly cos i've been "bz" for the past 2 days. in n out of s'pore. hehe. all the walking is taking a toll on my kaki. ouch ouch.

on wednesday i followed my dad to Komoko n Tang Choon motors (tang soon or choon tang..watever.. ) at bt timah rd to look at hyundai matrix n nissan (sunny..sentra? i donno.. but the lower end one la). my dad asked me to accompanied him mainly bcos he wanted to expose me to diff ways ppl communicate n deal w customers in business environment. (in order to teach me communication skills.. best eh? no need to go for course) s'pore style. yeap. it was a gd experience. at the end of the day i cud perform sum calculation regarding loans, wat is paper value, current interest rate which is related to the number of yr u need to pay of ur loan (ie at komoko 2.5% for below than 5 yrs loan n 3% for more than 5), price of COE (as of today, it has dropped.. so some of the car dealer cut the prices to as much as 1K), insurance.. yada yada.. the salesperson frm hyundai is nice. unlike the one frm tang choon.. it's lk wat he's trying to say to us is.. "ur car worth nothing,proton only. can only sell as (s)crap.if u want to buy a new car, we hv to ask the car dealer to evaluate how much ur car is worth in the current market, then we cud determined how much more u shud pay.. 2 b frank, any car more than 3 yr old.. not a japan car.. wont fetch higher price.. bla bla bla.. " mebe he saw my dad in his shirt n slack die igt pakcik2 je la eh.. tu lom pakai ketayap.. kot2 layan nk x nk je.. seriously.. cara die layan mcm kite x leh nk afford je .. poodah..

well.. it's his lost. my dad has decided to go for matrix. partly bcos when we're going to kl, we cud campak our cat jac at the back. tehehe. gud idea dad.

oh yeah.. aftr digesting all those info abt car loans, COE, bla bla bla.. we headed to cosway point n had our lunch at swensen's. yup only dad n me. shopping is fun w him. esp when he has metro shopping voucher worth $100 w him. *cheeky grin*

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yesterday, i went to s'pore agn on my own. naik bas n e'thing. this time to spend my time w him. he just had his tooth pulled out. so we cudnt go for makansutra. hehe. instead we just window shop at orchard. it's summer season. x byk decent clothing la kt kedai. haizzz. or saje x nk kasi org shopping. we spent the day searching for my dad's toys.hehe. MiG 21.. fighter plane model. which explains my aching calf. from one shop to the othr.. power walked abis.. i think we cud make a gd team for treasure hunting.. hehee. ard 4pm we made our way back to jb. b4 the evening rush. n had our trunch at the fd court seblah bomba larkin. i decided to gv the soto ayam there a try. i was happy at 1st when my order arrived cos the soto is complete w begedil. BUT it turned out dat the begedil is masam. cheh.. ntah baper harinye begedil.. hmmmm.. e'thing else is ok tho. even the chicken flesh is chunky. cume tu la.. begedil basi..

sampai hati ko buat bisness mcm gitu cara die.. ikhs2..

Nice ait?

now u cud consider me as a (not so)serious blogger. hehe. cos i hv a new blogskin. thanx to sis frina!! mwah mwah. nice eh? even hv long black hair lk me. n pretty lk me oso. haha. so nice of her to create 4 me, my own n unique blogskin. she's a wife n a working mummy n yet manage to dis while me complaining kinot do a thing while at home eh? shame of u syana. hehehe

baru semangat nk blog!

Duit kopi n no resit

i found Neng! basking under the sun, on my mom's car. i miss u!! He's a brave brave cat. :)

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there r so many things bothering me right now. that tank-lorry driver (JHV 1748) . a custom officer n a s'porean. endless landscaping project. bullying. double standard. n many other things bttr for me not to say here unless i want to live sumwhere in a remote place.

but what made me really angry is the 2nd issue. n i think it's my responsibility as a m'sian whose part of her root's in s'pore to make it as my entry today.

budaya duit kopi. is here to stay.definitely.

raya nk dkt. so u decide to go to jb hntr kain utk jahit.in order to get cheaper but gd services. who doesnt right?. so with a car-boot-full of kain.. mebe frm makcik.. pakcik.. kak ngah yg pesan skali tlg hantar tailor kt jb.. mestila nmpk mcm saudagar kain kn? n u know dat u wont lepas green lane.. jd masuklah lane barang2 yg perlu dicukai.. u knew dat don u?? dat u will definitely kena cukai. u said it urself. "psl kain byk sgt.."

textile, carpets.. among the things yg kena cukai bile bawak masuk m'sia. if not.. how wud the local textile industries survived? jd, peg. kastam to buat la ape yg patut dibuat. check barang2. n decided.. rm300 for cukai.

rm300? mahal kn? but then we didnt know baper byk kain yg dibawa. how much is the real value. kastam pn shud display.. baper percent of the value yg patut dicukai. TELUS! TRANSPARENT! any person w a sound mind msti mintak kurang. biasa la tu. but if kite nmpk.. ape yg dicukai.. mcm mane pengiraannye.. n it justifies.. xkn ade yg nk komplen. or mintak kurang.

"kurang? okla.. rm100.. tp xde resit" WHAT IN THE HELL DOES THAT MEANS?? xde resit.. means.. no proof of any payment made.. where wud the money goes?? malu aku. n it doesnt stop there.

how the payment is made. cash of course. duit tu ltk kt atas kain2. AWAY FROM ANYONE'S VIEW. kastam yg amik pn tgn terketar2 *dats wat i heard* what's w the secrecy unless it's WRONG??

so.. off u go.. mebe happier bcos u got away. n tell others abt it.. saying dat "ala.. kalo kastam tahan ko mintak diskaun sure dptnye.. tp diorg tu x tau ke.. duit yg diorg amik tu haram.. kasi anak bini makan"

but then.. didnt u know that yg memberi pn dikira subahat??

what im trying to say is.. 1st to the officer. insaflah. asal nmpk s'porean or mane2 org yg ko bleh ugut... ko makan duit die. sampai bile. duit tu nnti ko beli mknn utk anak bini.. jd darah daging. sebati dlm diri. pk la! mentaliti tu tukar.. "alah..apela sgt.. diorg tu kn kaya.. " kite manusia.. sama melayu! melayu mkn melayu? ape ni!!

perhaps.. mmg gaji bulan diorg x memadai nk senangkn anak bini. x setimpal dgn keje yg diorg lakukn. salah siape plak ni?

n to the othr person.. u already knew dat u kena cukai. nape elak? kalo kena bayar rm300.. bayar aje la. mmg mahal. tp dr subahat. mebe dis time lepas, wat abt next time? the same officer..or officer lain yg tau cerite.. perah ur money agn...

kalo berani.. ask the officer to explain. nape rm300. ape peraturannya.. apa syaratnye.. mcm mane cukai tu dikira. x puas hati, jumpe org atas die.. tp jgn lupe budi bahasa.. kalao nk diskaun pn make sure u get the resit. mmg leceh.. mmg payah. sape kata dok kt m'sia ni senang?

malas nk ckp byk. tp yg pastinya aku marah. dgn malu.

Where's Neng?

the search is on. for kuning @ Neng.

Last nite pak guard asked us if Neng came back for its food. Yup. Neng is also the unofficial pak guard's pet. A cat that loud,no one cud ignore him. Lately, there are too many stray dogs in this area. My mom told me that a couple of days ago, a worker found dead cat somewhere in the school compound.Luckily, its not Neng. Those vicious dogs. hrmph.

Come home Neng. I miss talking to u.

A day with my man n my babe

mission accomplished. i scanned the pics. beautiful. but, im too lazy too put it here. :p

i started my day very early today. followed my mom to the pasar. went back home. n continue wat i was doing before. sleep.

i get a whole lot of sleep nowadays. beauty sleep it was. a beauty regime b4 meeting my beau. *hv to get rid of the eye bags u know*

noon has come. n we meet. off we go to CS n eat takoyaki while waited for dadar.

rm 4 for 3 pieces of takoyaki is quiet expensive, but it was delicious. takoyaki is a japanese food - it's kind of jemput-jemput but instead of being deep fried, the batter is put into a round shape mould while being cooked. it's like cooking apam jepun. u can choose the fillings u want - chicken, octopus or shrimp. it's then served with a japanese brown sauce, mayo n barbecued fish slices.

after wandering aimlessly, we finally meet dadar. straight frm her workplace. i started to feel hungry.(again). pizza hut. here we come.

pizza never tasted so good. stuffed crust pepperoni pizza (his choice) n hawaii chicken (dadar's choice) PLUS good conversations (evntho, i was the victim.being totured mercilessly by them both) PLUS good companions (my man n my best bud.. wat else cud i asked?). the only downside was OVER-ATTENTIVE waiters. pantang tgk pinggan/mangkuk kosong msti die nk angkat. hold on to ur plates people!! we're not done yet!!

thanks for the wonderful lunch Yang.

an hour ltr, i dont think i wud eat pizza again for the nxt 2 month OR eat for the rest of the day. how wrong i was because back at home, for dinner, lauk kampung were waiting for me.

sunnah lps makan, jln 40 langkah. but, we walked hundreds steps, window shopping at CS. SHOE SHOPS!! dadar said my man is a gd shopping companion. he wud even go into shoe shops with us. hehe. well, he was train by me! ;)

i had a gd time.

dadar, your wits n wisdom has helped n entertained me a lot. from jb to pilah you hv always been there for me. great friends u are. n u'll always be. love u babe.

Sleepy hollow

go sleeeeeep people. i want 2 scan some pics. beautiful pics of us in sentosa.

i don lk ppl looking over my shoulder while im using the pc. its not dat im surfing porn. *eurgh*. its the part where i hv to answer questions - "what is dat?" , "where do u find dat", "who gave u dat" - i dreaded much. privacy is all i need.

talk abt privacy. i cant even be in my room w/o ppl BARGING into it. my goodness. wat does it takes for a PRIVACY?? i do understd dat the room isnt mine alone - the best bathroom is there, the largest wardrobe is there. but still, im 23 soon. im entitled to be on my own at times. the least u cud do is knock.

thank u

10 things (more or less) i hate.

1. roaches - which love the idea of sharing a bathroom with me. It's not easy, going abt ur business while having to keep an eye or both eyes on them (plus the showerhead.. in case they got nearer, just spray the water at them)
2. cicak - once shared a pillow w me. a dead cicak. under the cover of my pillow. the whole nite i cudnt sleep, searching for the sickening smell without noticing it was under my nose (literally) all the time.
3. ppl stepping on my toes (literally). my feet are already small.
4. being moody. im very much affected by my own emotions and others too. when u're sad, i wud be double-sad.
5. being mean. sumtimes the anger is uncontrollable. pls forgive me. i didnt mean(sic) to.
6. running out of orange juice.
7. smaller -food-portion-than-shown-in-the-menu. penipu! gimme my money back.
8. ppl who just waits for instructions. we're grown up. think! be initiative.
9. ppl who is unwilling to work extra hard and doesnt feel a weeny bit guilty for not sharing equal load.
10. ppl who speaks w accents - u were THERE a tiny bit of ur life. n u still eat belacan n budu.
11. ppl who uses local dialects/loghats EXCESSIVELY when they're ard ppl who don hv any clue wat they're saying. and im not interested to know wat it means.
12. shit happens. stop finding reasons. stop blaming.
13. over-reacting. which i cudnt help. sumtimes being over-reacting triggers my brain cell to take action.

Happiness

Me : Nama siapa?
Nurin : Uyin Mama.

Me: Umur berapa?
Nurin : Uyin Mama.

How cute can she be? Nurin is a very fast learner. I taught her how to play air guitar - while listening to Sheila On 7's. she was good. one heck of a rock babe. she even knew how to make the peace sign. n an 'i love u' sign. (evntho she kept folding the wrong fingers.. but cik ana understd the msg.. i love u too babe)

Malaikat sentiasa mendampingi bayi. Memeliharanya. N maybe dats y we tend to feel happy n calm ard baby. Because they are so pure and innocent. until cik ana came along and taught her to be a rock star. Teheheee. Keep ur babies away frm me. muahaha

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Me : Neng, lapar ye?
Neng : ngeOooW.. MeOOoww

Me : Td jln sampai ke mana neng? ala..ciannye lapar ye?
Neng : MeoooOOww.. ngEooOOoww *rubbing its head against my leg*

Me : Makan ni cayang. Dah pas ni xmoh jln2 lg.
Neng : .... *even Neng knew not to talk with his mouth full*

I talk to my cats. I hug them. I used to kiss them. (But my man warned me against it.hehe.Germ.Dangerous. Dokie dear. ;) ) I love watching them sleep. Cats do suffer frm every known disease, yet u nvr heard of a cat suffering frm insomnia. I love torturing them - in a gd way. hehe. Cudnt resist. Cats always seem so proud. Unlike dog who will do anything being told. Cats - Nada. Tell them to sit or move frm ur favourite chair or blanket, all they wud do is stare back at u with a bored look at their face. Work - other people's work - is an intolerable idea to a cat. Can u picture cats herding sheep or agreeing to pull a cart or get ur morning paper? They will not inconvenience themselves to the slightest degree. Independent they are n free spirited.

A dog will show his love by jumping on you at the front door. A cat will show his love by ignoring you, and then curling up next to you when you need it most.

And dat's y i love my cats - both Jac and Neng (evntho Neng has also become pak guard's cat, n other students cat.. i hv to share him with the whole school)

As every cat owner knows, nobody owns a cat - Ellen Perry Berkeley

Let’s talk abt love .. for food

3 months at home equal to 3 additional kg and an inches, each to my waist, thighs and already-wide-rear. *sigh*

And all these are contributed by my love. Not him. THE FOOD!

So, im going to talk abt food. My all time favourites. And also food that cure my PMS.

1. Soto ayam / madura – there are 2 types of soto – w slightly clear, light soup or w murkier(?) soup resulted frm adding some coconut milk in it. Eaten with nasi impit or meehon or mee. My kind of soto must be accompanied by – begedil (this is a must!!! But its hard to find soto along w begedil in here unless u don mind paying another 50cents for a begedil as big as my thumb.. n my thumb aren’t any big.. stingy!) taugeh – slightly cooked but still retain it’s crispiness; sambal kicap made frm cili api– it has to be spicy, sweet n sour; su-un goring; shredded chicken flesh – don’t be too stingy laa.. n ended up shredding the chicken as thin as a floss. X syiOk! ; garnish with thinly sliced spring onion n bawang goring. WALA!! A BIG NO - kacang goring.. unoriginal. The soup – not too thin (unlike some ppl who sell their soto simply by using chicken stock n rempah sup bonjot. Come on!! There are a lot of ingredient u’ve missed!! Lots of onions, serai, buah keras, lengkuas AND (this is imptnt) daun salam and daun limau purut. It makes a big difference! Arghhhh!!.) SO far the best soto is made by kak mas, over at nek wan’s place. We managed to get hold of the recipes and tried it out, but still nothing can beat kak mas’s.
   Soto to watch – the one in upper changi road. (haven’t tried it tho)
2. Mee Rebus Johor – there are various version – mee rebus stulang, mee rebus lan janggut, mee rebus wahid. But my fav is wahid's. I love watching them preparing the dish. Firstly, a handful of mee n taugeh is put inside a strainer n blanched in boiling water for under a minute. Remove and place in a dish. Put half of boiled egg at the side n pour the gravy ( the thickness [frm using sweet potatoes – NOT flour]) n sweetness (beef stock – hours of boiling tulang lembu.. nyum2) of the gravy is just right – all over it. Generously. Garnish with ‘kerak’ – fried crispy batter, to add some crunchiness in it. Add a dash of vinegar n light soya sauce n voila!! For added spiciness, there’s always slices of green chilli. The taugeh is still crispy, the mee isn’t over-cooked – still springy. Yummy!
   Mee rebus to watch – Mee rebus Haji Wahid at angsana (RM 3.50)
3. Nanas cicah sambal kicap tabur serbuk asam – my friend Wani introduced me to this ultimate cure for PMS. Hehehe. Putting a piece of nanas covered w the sambal n asam in ur mouth… n feel the explosion of different taste in our mouth. Sweet, followed by sour n lastly spicy. Ur face will definitely get distorted. Hehe. just love it. sold for rm 2 at roadside stall beside LRT Universiti.
4. Yong Tau Fu Pak Din - what i love the most abt yong tau fu pak din is the soup which is very2 light n refreshing. w/o a hint of sweetness frm using MSG. yes, pak din also sell yong tau fo JB style - eaten w soup. even the sauces (yong tau foo KL style) arent too sweet. generous w the kangkung. the prices are range from 50cents - 60 cents for each item. available at Pasar Minggu Kg Bharu, KL
5. Pisang Goreng TNB - the stall is outside pencawang TNB at jln stulang/kilat. i think the seller already made million by selling pisang n cempedak goreng. perfect batter n sambal kicap too. hehe.
6. Popia Basah - at jln biru, tmn pelangi. nothing can beats the popiah. homemade skins w the filling made from sengkuang, carrot, sambal (spicy n sweet) n kacang. ahhh.. perfect for tea time.

Writing abt food made me hungry. And im trying to lose weight for crying out loud!!! mebe i shud stop here. ;)

Harapan

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Sudikah kau tunggu?

How to survive a long-distance journey with ur cats

1. feed ur cat an hour BEFORE starting ur journey. so the cat has plenty of time to relief itself - 'bowelly'
2. 10 mins b4 ur journey, put the cat inside its cage so it will oriented itself to its very much reduced territory. u may want to use a glove/mitten to do this (if u hv cat lk mine - all teeth and claws)
3. once u're in the car. u can release the cat
4. bring along any strong smelled ointment - i.e minyak kapak, tiger balm. no, ur cat wont experience any moton sickness, but i found out that the cat hated the smell so we rub it on the driver's (my dad) arms so it wont jump on him while he's driving.
5. bring along old newspapers/used clothes - accidents might happen. (refer no. 1)
6. when uve reached ur destination, release the cat instantly. make sure the litterbox is ready beforehand. like ppl, they also need to go to toilet aftr a long journey.
7. not recommended 4 ppl who is allergic to cats

good luck.