The Silver Lining

Have u ever noticed that when u're under so much pressure - especially those in ur subconscious mind; u break down easily?

Currently, there are 2 main things on my plate. One of it has taken over my life completely since mid last year- everything which needs to be done revolves around it. And that is what im planning to get away from. As soon as i can, as best as i could.

But, the 2nd thing is as important as the 1st. For the 2nd has been part of my life for many many years. For the 2nd being the core of my strength and vital for my emotional wellness. I've made a resolution early this year for 2nd to be better than before. And that needs changes. Changes within me.

There will be obstacles, hurdles along the way. There are also heavy loads that has to be carried and as i progress further, it will be unloaded one by one and left behind. As careful as i could, i made my way, each step taken with great determination and hoping everything would turn out smoothly. Smooth it's not going to be. Bumpy it is, but the determination is still there. All I need is encouragement, acknowledgement for wanting to go on this journey. Refrain throwing remarks or judgement, for the load will become a burden, thus make me stumble on my path.

Eventhough I stumble, many at times; but I know I would get back on my feet. With cuts and bruises which will heal with care; endless prayers for the soul to be strong; upmost trust - and believe that I could; will eventually let me unload all those past burdens to embrace changes and have peace within me. Insya allah.

I won't give up. But I need time and patience from those who cares.